I was planning on crafting a witty title for this post but honestly, it is too good to mess with.
I passed my audition!
I am going to NYC for SoulCycle Training!! The reality of it all is still sinking in.
From the first audition to the fourth, a lot has changed.
Audition 1: Adaptation
SoulCycle had yet to open up in Vancouver . This was the very first audition for the wave of instructors that would lead the community of Yaletown. Looking back, my lesson, and the theme, was adaptation. When the audition day came, I had not taken a SoulCycle class in over 8 months. I was out of rhythm with the class and had lost touch with the essence of the company: the community. Instead of auditioning in a group setting, we were called in one by one. I was not prepared for this. I was not prepared to “teach” to an empty room. I was also not ready to hear my voice on the microphone. I was thrown off by the whole experience, and I did NOT adapt. Instead, I became overwhelmed by things out of my control.
Audition #2: Satisfaction
My second audition took place in November 2017. This time, my theme turned out to be satisfaction. The actual audition day was a breeze in comparison to every other one. There were only 12 people auditioning and the whole process took 1 hour. I do not remember much from the day; however, the process after the audition, I remember like it was yesterday. I had auditioned well. My songs were great, my words were inspiring, my flow was on point. I was great! The catch? There was no space on the schedule. There was no place to put me after training. So, I had to be satisfied with the effort that I gave and had to learn to trust the process. I had to surrender to the timing, God’s timing, and know that I did everything right and it was just not my time yet.
Audition #3: Inspiration
Fast-forward to April 2018, and we are at my third audition. Third time’s a charm, right? Not exactly. I invested so much into this audition. I used my savings and flew myself down to LA for the audition because I thought this was the time. Correction, I was wanting this to be the time…I was trying to WILL it to be the time. I had spent the previous 3 months absolutely soaking up my best friend’s skill, talent and grace. I had spent ever Tuesday night in a room filled with inspiration and was carrying all of that with me to LA. This audition, I was with over 40 other people! Because there were so many of us, it was split into two rounds, and some people were cut after the first round. I felt so inspired and motivated by all the people who came and showed up chasing their dreams. The odd thing is that I still had a shadow of a doubt in my heart. Although I was completely and utterly inspired, I was lacking an internal conviction. I was at a crossroads in my career and was riding as much as possible in Vancouver, and I still doubted that I was “good enough”. This is real talk you guys. We are the ONLY people who stand in our way. We are the ONLY people who give up right before the finish line. Although I certainly didn’t give up, I just didn’t give my all because I wasn’t ready.
Audition #4: Determination
Damn was I ready. My fourth audition day came, and I was BEYOND ready. There was a shift inside of my heart and soul between the third and fourth audition. I literally stepped into my own. I stepped into the woman that I am today. I was determined to be the best human that I could be. I realized that I have a passion and purpose to bring joy and health into other people’s lives. I relinquished living up to other people’s expectations and starting living MY life, in the biggest, brightest way that I could. I was determined and disciplined in my preparations, both physically and mentally speaking, and knew that it would pay off. THIS PIXIE DOES NOT QUIT! By the time the audition day came, the nerves had dissolved and instead, all I wanted to do was get in that room and light it up. I wanted to lift all the other audition-ees up, support them and encourage them to chase their dream, just as I was chasing mine!
Be yourself! There are billions of the people in the world, and only one of you. The audition team does not want to see another version of your favourite instructor. You have a voice. You have a style. You have a personality, so use it and show it.
Trust the process. This is a big, juicy lesson to learn. Few people pass on the first round and to be honest, you will grow so much through each audition. The more you audition, the more you grow, the stronger you get.
Don’t get caught up by the noise of your surroundings. Stay in your lane, and if you need to merge into another one, so be it. No sweat.
Don’t. Give. Up. Be passionate, determined and focused in the pursuit of what sets your soul on fire.